What the hell does my title mean? Its the name of characters from various stories that I am working on (or should be working on). I feel like I'm finding my muse again. Thank goodness too or I'll go crazy waiting to either turn eighteen or move somewhere else.

The in-between is always the worse you know? I'm stuck in my grandma's house, miserable and wishing I could do something productive. Well something more productive other then playing house-wife. I'm so sick of just cleaning all the time and picking up after people. So I've given myself a goal... write as much as I can right now. Cause once I turn eighteen I'll barely have time for it.

Now, my latest little project. For now it's titled as War of the Wicked. That'll probably change unless people like it. O_o The main character is Xavier Raidale. Or also known as Snipe by his co-workers. He's the lazy ass that sits back and kills things from afar while everyone else endangers themselves. Haha. XD But anyways... I'm writing this story in first person, journal style. Something new for me. Let's see how it goes.

Then there's Conner Rowan. He's not actually mine. He belongs to Sammy for our lab rp. We've been writing it forever. He was really an a** at the beginning but he's rubbed off on me. Now I love his a** and couldn't live without it. Too bad I'm killing him now for plot purposes.

Lastly, Tony. Oh my beloved Tony. He belongs to my novel that I've finished. I'm suppose to write the sequel. But ever since I lost most my data thanks to a virus I've lost the will to write it. Maybe I just need to wait then go back to it? I dunno but I'm pissing off my fans that read the first one. O_o My mum is ready to kill me for taking so long, haha.

So I'm depressed. Normally I don't rant on here when I get like this... but shit has been too hard to handle. Everyone is busy hanging with each other, so last resort... I rant on here. Hopefully I have enough time.

So why am I depressed, may you ask? Well I'll list my lil woes to you.
~ My family has lost two houses within the last two years.
~ My mum got fired from her first job.
~ My mum buys a business (hell knows why) and the previous owner sabotages our rent, trying to get us to give back the business even after paying for it. She was the most vile woman I ever met, and a b**** of a land lady.
~ We loose the business and my mum falls into a depression.
~ Bills pile up in my family since my mum is out of a job.
~ Now, we can't even afford the rent at the house we were at.
~ We're suppose to be out by the end of this month
~ A week ago, the electricity and the water turned off in that house while we're trying to pack. This makes it almost impossible to do much there.
~ We find out the electrical box is broken, yet the land lady refuses to let a technician fix it. She owns the home so they can't do anything without consent. She PURPOSELY leaves us without electricity for God knows what reason. (Why do we have such bad luck with Land Ladies? I think they hate my mum or something. I'm sure this must be something illegal. We're not suppose to be out yet.)
~ Even though we payed our water bill, the Land Lady asked to have our water shut off. (F***ing b****. Please tell me that's illegal dang it! If only we could afford a lawyer.) Now we can't wash the dishes in our house so we can pack them.
~ We have to move into my grandparents' home now.
~ I'm sharing a small bedroom with BOTH my sisters who don't know how to clean.
~ My poor dogs and cat are left at my old house we're moving out of with no air conditioning.
~ My grandmother is allergic to pets so we have to get rid of them. (I refuse to put them in the pound)
~ Every possible person who could take them and I trusted... they've all had reasons they couldn't in the end. I don't have a home yet for any of them.
~ Thinking about getting rid of the pets kills me inside. Having to put them in the pound might actually do it though.
~ I can't graduate highschool, and I feel like a failure because of it. Oh how far I've fallen from straight A's and honor classes.
~ My mum is depressed, my dad is angry, and I feel like I'm falling apart.
~ I can't get a job cause I have no highschool diploma, nor can I get one. (My only hope is a GED eventually.)
~ Every F***ing hope I've had has plummeted into nothing. Everything is falling apart.

I wonder... how the hell am I suppose to make it on my own, if even my parents can't manage it.
Why is it so hard right now?

Pain:
So I've been in a lot of pain... particularly in my small joints. Wonderful right? Especially since all I ever do with my time is write, draw, play piano, and play video games. I mean I don't know what to do with myself lately. It sucks, especially at night when its worse.
Tomorrow I should find out why I'm having these pains. The doctors are testing for different forms of arthritis and auto immune diseases that attack the joints. So yeah.

Neglect:
Due to this pain I've been neglecting Deviant. I know, sorry. But even typing this up was hell. (And probably not good for recovery.)I hope it ends soon so I may return with vengeance.

Ants:
They're EVERYWHERE. In my bathroom, on my desk, on my floor, in my bed. My room has been twice as spotless as usual and I'm vaccuming every three days in hopes they'll leave me alone. No such luck so far.

Now I'm off to kill some more... they're on my desk again.

So yeah... just realized my birthday is a little over a week away. I wonder if I should celebrate it. (I didn't last year.) I'm getting old. =_= My age of 16 felt a little wasted. But I won't get on that rant. Here comes 17 and nothing I can do will stop it. I hate getting older.

So I have a roleplay account on deviant. The reason I tell you this is because all my Baccano fan-art will be posted there from now on. Double posting is annoying. So if you ever want to take a peek, here's the link to it- [link]

Now I'm going back to working on that lab rp with Sammy. Damn we've written a lot.

So I've gone to put up a new journal quite a number of times now, but never got myself to finish one and put it up. What does this equate to? No new journal for months. XD My last journal was still chatting about the holidays. Well anyways.
I really don't think I have a life right now. (Its been stolen by my lab story with my twin, lol.) I keep getting that surreal feeling. Perhaps I'm spending too much time in these realms of fantasy. @.@ I think its screwing with my concept of reality. Sometimes I swear those stories are more real then my life ever will be. Of course, that probably has to do with all the crap and stress I just finished dealing with in real life. Financial issues, family issues, personal issues... damn I got the trinity of tragedies going on here. XD Well the more stress I have in real life, the less I want to focus on it. That's how everyone is I think. Or most anyways. Oh well.
So here's a quiz I'm doing to pass time and procrastinate sleep.



///Quiz Thingy///

001. Real name → Krystal Grow
002. Nickname(s)→ Tangent, Avalen, Ruze
003. Zodiac sign → Aries
004. Male or female → Female
005. Elementary → Went to more of them then I feel like listing.
006. Middle School → Hillview
007. High School → Quartz Hill then homeschool
008. Hair color → blonde
009. Long or short → Long
010. Loud or Quiet → I sway between the extremes
011. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
012. Phone or Camera → Phone.
013. Health freak → Eh, more health aware then freaky.
014. Drink or Smoke? → No
015. Do you have a crush on someone? → currently no
016. Food or Drink → Drink
017. Piercings → My ears
018. Tattoos → I want one eventually.


HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane→ yes
020. Been in a relationship → yes
021. Been in a car → yes
022. Been in a fist fight → yes

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → my ears
024. First best friend → XD ha, like I could remember that far back. I recently met a cousin that I apparently played with every day as a toddler. I didn't recognize her at all.
025. First award → Eh, who knows. I was the perfect child in my youth and got awards all the time.
026. First crush → First grade. That first crush also became my first 'boyfriend'. Too bad he was black and the teachers all freaked out when they found out. It only lasted a week. But I really did love holding his hand.
028. First big vacation → I traveled a lot in my youth, so I don't know.

LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to → My uncle Myron
030. Last person you texted → Sammy, to yell at her about our rp. XD
031. Last person you watched a movie with → My cousins. It was in the car while in traffic.
032. Last food you ate → This pasta with white sauce. =_= I feel queasy just thinking about it.
033. Last movie you watched → Veggie Tales movie
034. Last song you listened to → Chasing Pavements by Adele
035. Last thing you bought → A Kyle Busch tank top at the nascar race. Woohoo!
036. Last person you hugged → My lil cousin Bella. She's so adorable.

FAVES:
037. Food → Sushi
038. Drinks → Tea
039. Clothing → Jeans, long sleeves, and scarf. (I just wish the weather was good to wear that more often.)
040. Books → House by Ted Dekker and Frank Peretti
041. Music → Linkin Park
042. Flower → water lily
043. Colors → midnight blue
044. Movies → Alice in Wonderland, Coraline, and Two Weeks Notice
045. Position → That's for me to know and for you to wonder. O.-
046. Subjects → English and Art

IN 2008, I....

047. [ ] Kissed in the snow.
048. [x] Celebrated Halloween.
049. [x] Had your heart broken.
050. [x] Went over the minutes on your cell phone.
051. [x] Was questioned about your sexual orientation.
052. [ ] Came out of the closet.
053. [ ] Got pregnant.
054. [ ] Had an abortion.
055. [x] Did something you've regretted.
056. [x] Broke a promise.
057. [x] Hid a secret.
058. [x] Pretended to be happy.
059. [ ] Met someone who changed your life.
060. [ ] Pretended to be sick.
061. [ ] Left the country.
062. [x] Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it.
063. [x] Cried over the silliest thing.
064. [x] Ran a mile.
065. [x] Went to the beach with your best friend(s).
066. [ ] Stay single the whole year.

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → nothing
068. Drinking → nothing
069. I'm about to → Go to bed.
070. Listening to → Adele
071. Plans for today → Got to sleep and dream demented. XD Oh wait its tomorrow now. Hm... I guess rest, write, play video games, and try out this new recipe.
072. Waiting for → My energy to go up on Mafia Wars. Darn addictions.

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? → Yes.
074. Want to get married? → Yes
075. Careers in mind → Author

YOUR SEX OF CHOICE; WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT THEM?
076. Lips or eyes → Eyes
077. Shorter or taller? → Taller then me, a must.
078. Romantic or spontaneous → Either would be good by me. But spontaneous would probably be better so he could deal with my... bi-polar personality.
079. Nice stomach or nice arms → Stomach
080. Sensitive or loud → Loud
081. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant → Trouble-maker

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts → Never had any
084. Ran away from home → Never
085. Hold a gun/knife for self defense → Nope.
086. Killed somebody → Do people even take this question seriously? O.o
087. Broken someone's heart → I... don't think so???
088. Been arrested → Not yet
089. Cried when someone died → Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → No
091. Miracles → Yes
092. Love at first sight → Yes
093. Heaven → Yes
094. Santa Claus → Of course! =O
095. Sex on the first date → Not unless you're getting married on the first date, haha.
096. Kiss on the first date → Sure. ^_^ Its a good way to see if you have chemistry with that person.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Naw, I'm fine alone in my room right now. ^_^
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → Yes. I'm very blessed.
099. Do you believe in God → yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people